Rejections just parts of life. Don't keep your face down the ground.

Throughout our life, we gonna face uncounted number of rejection and we have to face each of it with all our heart to face the next one. But don't worry cause this is how our mind and heart learn to be strong. 

(June 2011)

please turn back time

i know this sound impossible but lately, i keep hoping for this thing to be happened...when i'm alone, it make me thinking about WHAT IF?

WHAT IF this and WHAT IF that...
WHAT IF i do this and WHAT IF i do that...
WHAT IF i know this person and WHAT IF i don't....
WHAT IF i decide this and WHAT IF i decide that...

sometimes, i don't feel like i'm deserved to get what I've got today....
sometimes i fell i should get LESS than I've got,
..and sometimes i feel i should get MORE than I've got..

the thing that keeps playing in my head is 'the MORE thing' that i should get...
i feel like i'd wasted my time for all things that I've done till today..
..and feel like there were some people out there that had got what i wanted...and YES..i am ENVY!

apart from that, i knew all this had be written and there are reasons behind this things to be happened..it's not like i'm not grateful with what i had, but i just feel that i'm GONNA be more happy if i had what i wish rather than what i WANT...

anyway, i knew that this is my DESTINY and i should ACCEPT it as it is.and YES again...i'm happy with what i have today........so THANKS GOD..i can't turn back time and i can't ask you to do it for me, but i wish i will get what i deserve 'NEXT TIME'......*no expression