MYOB

 Don’t be particular on other people’s sins, as we could have overlooked our own.

Kira-kira yang bukan urusan kita.

Ada masa mahu pergi awal aku rasa,
Tapi tentu tahu diri belum bersedia,
Walau tidak tahu macam mana Dia akan kira,
Walau Tuhan itu tidak kejam aku percaya,
Tapi selagi nyawa ada, teruskan jua.
Dalam pada itu, cuba kuatkan diri untuk ikut suruhan Dia.

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Semoga yang baik-baik nanti, apabila tiada.

(teringat arwah ayah saudara)

Living Reality

Reality is hell. You can't get out of it.
Left alone alive.

30

sekurang-kurangnya kita kenal siapa diri kita,
sekurang-kurangnya kita kenal yang maha kuasa.

jangan biar mati nanti sia-sia.

hablun minnan nas

Syukur atas salah lalu yang tertebus. 

Terus memohon untuk yang masih belum. 

Mustahil elak yang mendatang, terus cuba untuk yang terpaling kurang.

red eye

i keep looking at the evening sun,

it looks reddish, in perfect circle,

low and a little above the horizon.

though i know it's not good for my eyes, i just keep looking.

i could be blinded by it,

but i keep looking

.

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sunstruck

sightfucked.

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sucker punch

i used to tell myself to take life easily,
that i don't need to put too much pressure on myself.

just stay calm and let things happen,
just take a deep breath and relax,
this world is temporary and life is short,
nothing worth fighting for,

just live.

..

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that was then, because it's easier that way.
maybe i need that calmness because it was a lot to life back then.
and that's the only mechanism that i can afford.
and also to avoid the thinking that i did not do the best,
and the feeling of disappointment when things turned out opposite of what i'd expecting.

i was neglecting my born with attribute,
i was discredit my urge to fight.

it has been years and i almost forgot what i really am,
i was too calm, yet i am not that.

now i think i had enough rest,
i had enough of wanting to settle down,
i had enough letting things happen by its own,
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i want to take control.

because i was and am a fighter,
and also because i'm ready to back in fight.