mantiq al tafkir

silap yang sering dilakukan dalam logik berfikir adalah menyamakan dunia dengan syurga/neraka dan menyamakan manusia, dengan Tuhan. paling pertama adalah tidak sama. jika sama..tiada apa yang perlu difikirkan.

Soalan klise, untuk hidup yang tidak.

'Apa makna hidup bagi kau?' Bagi aku, hidup ini memenatkan. Tapi tak bermakna kita tidak boleh tenang dalam penat itu. Jadinya, kita boleh pilih sama ada untuk melalui kepenatan ini dengan tenang. Atau tidak tenang.

no lucky business

i need to work hard for everything, then i get it. thing is..i'm already tired now.

We cannot dictate what is happiness to people. People are different. People are complex

Ego Contest That Go Nowhere (almost pointless)

At the end, everybody will be pushed to their reset point.. Every-possible-body. Life humbled us in every-fckg-way. That it is almost pointless to compete (with one another), in any means.

Beza yang membawa beza.

Kita sentiasa hidup sebagai hamba. Bezanya hamba kepada siapa? Atau apa.

Tugasan Hatian

Berhati-hati dengan hati. Berhari-hari. (tiap hari)

y*n y*n*

Your biggest enemy is yourself.

Yourself also should be your best bestfriend.

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The paradox..

Salah+Salah=Terbetul

Kelihatan A sedang solat memakai baju bertulis 'Naked Racer Cafe' di bahagian belakang.

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Selesai, dia disapa oleh seseorang dari belakang dgn suara yg agak kuat,

B: Baju ‘Naked’ tu pakai solat..mana boleh

A terdiam seketika..

A: Oo 'Naked' ni..tulisan jaa..

B: Kena tukar sebelum solat..

A: Tu la...

A: Tapi mcm mana kalau kita takde pilihan?

B: Mana boleh...(smbung ‘bertazkirah’)

A mula bangun dari tempatnya solat sebentar tadi berjalan ke arah B.

A: Macam mana kalau perkataan naked tu ada maksud lain?

B: Maksud macam mana pulak. Naked tu bogel la telanjang..

A: Oo...

A: Adakah naked itu membawa maksud telanjang, atau juga menelanjangkan silap orang?

B: (gelak sedikit dan terputus)

Suasana sunyi seketika..

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B: Terima kasih ya atas teguran..

A sambung berseloroh ttg perkara lain dan mereka berjalan keluar bersama dgn sedikit gelak tawa yg kedengaran lebih ikhlas dari tadi..

-Surau office (13/7/2023)

dɪˈstɪŋ(k)tɪv/

The thing with us is we wish life is simple and normal.

But it is not..
It is, complex.

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Human is complex.

Life is complex.

choose your winning

Good people will always win at the end (just the matter of time), although could appear not at times. 

And, 

Bad people also always win (but temporarily).

One is life one is not.

Taking pictures or videos with your phone with intention to post it online, is not living. 

Doing it to capture the moments, is.

Posting the captured moments online is keeping the memories.

Don't do it for the internet. Do it for, well...it.

Same but different.

Meeting Fadzli Rizman

He is a friend. 2004, since.

I met him this afternoon to pick up my stuff.

And we were talking........or more like sharing what we wish to have and done.

It's that random, really.

He makes me think again about my dreams.

The ones that I had forgotten (or ignored, maybe).

He makes me think again that I shouldn't feel enough of what I already have.

I ride my small scrambler, and thinking how big his dream is.

I'm thinking about mine.

Immediately, I feel defeated.

Despite of the good things I think I have now,

I actually lack of many things.

Passion? Maybe.

It makes me rethink.

I want to chase (back again) my dream.

But there's a lot to be fixed, and calculate at the first place.

Prediction, Weight, and Thrust. 

We'll see where it's going.

Am hoping for a good ending.

Finger-crossed. 

Amin.

-gombak, 26/3/2016 (draft)

MYOB

 Don’t be particular on other people’s sins, as we could have overlooked our own.

Kira-kira yang bukan urusan kita.

Ada masa mahu pergi awal aku rasa,
Tapi tentu tahu diri belum bersedia,
Walau tidak tahu macam mana Dia akan kira,
Walau Tuhan itu tidak kejam aku percaya,
Tapi selagi nyawa ada, teruskan jua.
Dalam pada itu, cuba kuatkan diri untuk ikut suruhan Dia.

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Semoga yang baik-baik nanti, apabila tiada.

(teringat arwah ayah saudara)

Living Reality

Reality is hell. You can't get out of it.
Left alone alive.

30

sekurang-kurangnya kita kenal siapa diri kita,
sekurang-kurangnya kita kenal yang maha kuasa.

jangan biar mati nanti sia-sia.

hablun minnan nas

Syukur atas salah lalu yang tertebus. 

Terus memohon untuk yang masih belum. 

Mustahil elak yang mendatang, terus cuba untuk yang terpaling kurang.

red eye

i keep looking at the evening sun,

it looks reddish, in perfect circle,

low and a little above the horizon.

though i know it's not good for my eyes, i just keep looking.

i could be blinded by it,

but i keep looking

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sunstruck

sightfucked.

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sucker punch

i used to tell myself to take life easily,
that i don't need to put too much pressure on myself.

just stay calm and let things happen,
just take a deep breath and relax,
this world is temporary and life is short,
nothing worth fighting for,

just live.

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that was then, because it's easier that way.
maybe i need that calmness because it was a lot to life back then.
and that's the only mechanism that i can afford.
and also to avoid the thinking that i did not do the best,
and the feeling of disappointment when things turned out opposite of what i'd expecting.

i was neglecting my born with attribute,
i was discredit my urge to fight.

it has been years and i almost forgot what i really am,
i was too calm, yet i am not that.

now i think i had enough rest,
i had enough of wanting to settle down,
i had enough letting things happen by its own,
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i want to take control.

because i was and am a fighter,
and also because i'm ready to back in fight.