The Keeper: Shoes

I bought this one on 2013. The first shoes I bought with my own money. My fourth salary? I can't recall.

Since the first day it's with me, I didn't wear any other shoes. It was the shoes I wore day and night. Work and off days.

Second year, I start to buy new shoes. 

Just because it starts to rip.

Rain. Motorcycle. Optionless.

But, it is still my favourite one. I wear it more than I wear the other new shoes. 

We had a connection. A strange one.

It is the witness of ups and downs.

My good deeds and sins.

It used to be my third spirit.

It just a pair of shoes. Yes.

Shoes that became the witness of my crucial life's transition. 

Since the day I was trapped, till the day I was freed.

Today, it is its third year.

Never imagine we could be this far.

Because it doesn't look (or made for) like it could be wore this long. 

But today, seems like the last day I could wear it.

It shows more ripped parts.

I can feel my socks get wet when I step on the road afterrain.

It's severed.

But, it is still my favourite.
Lifetime favourite.

Hipotesis Kerelatifan

Masa depan adalah visi yang bakal terrealisasi. 

Tiada realisasi, tiada masa depan.

Lesson

I've learned not to involve.

Not to solve.

Friendship ain't there, if it's not welcome. 

Hush. Solution is not the answer.

Time is.  

Resolusi Yang Dikongsi

Dua (atau tiga) tahun tiada resolusi.
Benci.
Kerana hal itu seperti tidak berfungsi.
Sengaja mengada menabur janji,
Kepada diri.
Walhal, sendiri sangsi.

Tidak tahun ini, kerana tidak semena aku mahu menjudi janji.
Kali ini, tanpa sangsi.

Klise?
Aku tidak peduli.

Selain dari semua itu, aku ingin berseronok.
Seronok melalui itu dan ini (yang tak pasti)
Seronok dengan masa yang berbaki,
Atau mungkin tinggal saki.

Tahun ini, aku ada resolusi.

Januari Satu

Tiada kata.

Tiada rasa.

Tiada apa.

Aku dibisukan.

Aku dipalsukan.

Mati, tapi bernyawa.

Hidup, tapi semput.

Mana udara?

Mana segala?

Mana semua apa yang aku dahaga?

Lesap.

Tak muncul.

Tiada.

Aku masih menunggu,

Sehingga sampai waktu,

Kata, rasa, dan apa itu,

Menjenguk aku. 

The Keeper: Belt

On 2006, i bought my first belt ever. With my own money. And today, is the day i bought the second one. The actual second one. 9 years later.

I swear I don't wear any other belt than this one, along that time period.
Higher secondary school-a year of college-three years of university-two years of working.
One belt.

I know it is not important, it just a fucking belt. A cheap one!
But, it is sentimentally valuable (for me at least).

Because i love to keep old stuffs. I love keep things permanent.

Contradiction

I was too busy gazing at the clear, bright sky.

And i wasn't realize the rain starts to pour.

The clouds are not dark,

It's going to rain, yet.

I can't trust neither the clouds,

Nor the rain.