Sunday, 18 May 2014

Invincible

Dalam kepala ada bayangan pagar di kawasan depan rumah di pekan,
Ada bangunan besar yang aku takut nak masuk.
Keduanya bercampur, rawak.

Dan aku tengah berdiri. Di situ, di tengah-tengah.
Pertimbang samada mahu pulang, atau mahu terus langkah.

Semangat ini mengingatkan aku pada satu roh.
Roh yang hilang entah kemana sejak 9 tahun yang lepas.

Semangat ini cuba menarik roh itu keluar dari tempat persembunyiannya.
Dan bersedia untuk meresap masuk ke jasad yang lama kaku.
Lalu mengemudi kaki yang lama terpasak, dek gentar tak bersebab.
Atau sebab yang tak patut.
Dan terangkat melangkah satu tapak, satu demi satu.

'Biar lambat, asal jangan terus tercengat.'
Itu pesan dari atas.
'Tak sampai pun tak mengapa, asal bergerak.
Tak pegun, tak gerun.'

Biar berpusing dalam satu paksi, asalkan seluruh deria terus berfungsi.
Tak henti, tak mati.
Anggap-lah kaki ini punya sakti.

Tak mengapa kalau tak betul, tak mengapa kalau hanya fantasi.
Asal takdir diri tidak diperjudi, oleh diri sendiri.


Tuesday, 13 May 2014

A Letter for The Naive Society

Mencari jawapan untuk enigma an-nas yang naif.

Faham dan Fikir.

Dunia ni, kau kena faham manusia-manusia lain jugak. Bukan faham diri sendiri sahaja. Bukan kau seorang manusia dalam dunia ni.

Kalau kau fikir pasal diri kau hanya, Kau akan jadi pentingkan diri sendiri.
Kau akan tuduh manusia lain salah.

Kau, Aku.....Kita,
Hanya sebahagian dari dunia ini.
Makanya, faham dan fikir.


Saturday, 5 April 2014

Money Matters

I wish I was born rich.
So I can built my own fortune out of it.
And not worrying about anything.
And having good times.
And have a healthy body, mind eventually.
And never have this disturbing things in my head that makes me losing grip of my own life.
I am now poor. And I wish I am not.
Because I believe that money definitely buy happiness.
Because it will get rid most of your problems, and fears.
With less problems and fears, you'll be happier.
With more money and happiness, you gain what you want and live life to its fullest.

This is still an enigma to me. I still don't get the answer for it, so God please.


Thursday, 3 April 2014

Athazagoraphobia

Lately, I lose inspiration to get my works done.
I don't feel good about myself. 
I can't get all these shits done. 
No matter how hard I try.

I am here but I don't know where my mind is.
I hate everything around me. People and the atmosphere.

My mind don't feel really well.
Unconsciously thinking of you, on an island, with someone i don't know. That's silently disturbing me from the inside.

Officially, I lose all my talents. And I want you back. In silence.


Saturday, 29 March 2014

don't mind this




I swear this song is one of the songs that touch my heart to its core.



Friday, 21 March 2014

Good Material







I might need to buy Alex Clare's album at the store.
I need this fucking drugs.