Rushing Blood

All of the sudden, i have these wild and numerous thoughts come into my head.

I don't know where they're coming from but I think I quite like it. It has been a while that i don't get into a unusual-mind-experience like this.

They are coming unstoppable, and in random. 

I think I have to stop thinking now; rightaway, or I might have to left all that thoughts; great ideas unwritten.

Tempoh & Isi

Sekarang kau muda.

Dalam 3 ke 4 dekad lagi kau mati.

Tinggalkan dunia.

Jadi, antara muda dan mati ini, apa yang kau nak isi?

Apa yang kau akan isi?

Hati? Ekspresi? Konfrontasi? Wang dan Baki?

Antara tempoh sebelum kau mati, apa yang kau takut? Apa yang kau tak mahu hadapi? Apa yang jiwa kau terhantui?

Perlu takut itu? 

Perlu di alam selepas nanti?

Isi....selagi tempoh ini masih berbaki.

Evasive Joke

Have you read/heard a joke, and you know it is funny as hell but the most you can do is smiling?

You actually want to laugh your lungs out but for an unexplained reason, you don't.

But you know, and you hear that you're laughing like crazy inside.

Your heart is laughing, deep inside.

Like you are literally laughing with your heart, not your mouth.

Have you ever encounter this kind of evasive cognitive response towards a joke? 

Just like the one i'm encountering now?

Have you?

Fuck You Eva

Life is a dick.

Never hope for life to get easier. Life will get hard anyway.

Life is pretty much like dick. It gets hard anytime it wants. And you are either like it or hate it. Hate it  because of it gets hard in the wrong time, and like it cause it will bring you to the whole fun experience. 

Thus, let yourself know that life will always want to fuck you, even when you don't want to.

Wuroman

I believe there is a thing called future.

But I don't attach myself to the idea of making it happened.

It will happened anyway, by itself, with just a little control from us.

There will be no future, for me atleast. Future will only make you worrying about things you didn't sure. 

So, whatever that is going to happened, just let it happened. I won't worry, especially of the things I can't control.

Future is unsure, so let focus on things that you can make a go of it.

Them

I can't be selfish.

It is not all about me. 

I have them, and if I want my life just according to me, then I can leave.

And see how I can live without them.

But yeah, I know I can't. So if I chose them, then I can't choose me.

Myself/life is not important. Theirs does.